As I look back on it. I'm glad my heart got broken, well not glad. I think that's the wrong word but I learned from it. I learned my strength and that I am worth more. I won't settle, I refuse to settle. Hopefully, my heart won't be broken to often because how many times can I learn the same lesson?
I'm excited for the future. I can't wait for fall and SPRING 2010!

Little by little, I'm moving on.
What I hate is feeling as though I'm inadequate or that I'm just easy to forget or get over. After everything you would think, somebody will actually stay with you not leave for somebody else.
I'm tired of being sad and questioning why. I forgave him. Its the first step in me moving on. I just wished I had somebody.
And I keep sounding like a melodramatic emo teenager, fun times... not

I'm moving on. Its been tough but I'm getting there. I miss having someone. Someone to cuddle with, talk to, and just be with.
I fear that I won't fall in love again. I know its stupid, I'm 18 I'm young, smart, and cute but still what if I lost my only chance?
I don't find myself that attractive or interesting, and it took 18 years to find somebody who actually wants to be with me in a relationship and is willing to stay. Not run away when things get tough.
I just wish to start over and find somebody new. Is that so hard or too much to ask for?

For me this has been a year filled of hopes, dreams, tears, anger, love, hate, and adventures/experiences I wouldn't trade for the world. I have met people that have changed my outlook in life and have taught me to be the best me I can possibly be. I've stayed friends with people who genuinely care about me and still want to be my friends after high school was over. I really never thought about my self worth. I have always had this idea or disillusionment that maybe I wasn't going to have a happy ending or that my friends wouldn't be waiting for me when I got back. I feared college was going to be this scary place where I would not find the family i have always dreamed of.
Ithaca College truly is home. My dark and dreary dorm is what I look forward too after a long day of classes. I love my roommate. I love my friends. Chloe is my opposite, she's a realist while I'm a dreamer. She gives me the dosage of reality that I need. Sierra has no shame, but that is what makes her Sierra. Natalie is the blondest black person I know. Jackie is my non-pretentious film major, who cares more about the work behind something than having her name up in lights. Liz, who constantly flirts with boys, brings a certain energy to the group that nobody else could. Danny and all the things he say that make me laugh, Andrew and his lack of grasp on reality and maturity, Bryant and his complete pretentious film major attitude, Benji and his impeccable style and broken heart, Delbert my male equivalent, and Kevin and his drunken behavior. These are the people who bring a smile to my face. And last of all Elias, my first boyfriend. Even though he is the cheesiest guy I have ever met, he just knows how to make me smile and be happy. I hope he stays being a prominent part of my life in this upcoming year. He's taught me how to play chess, and be a better person. And for that I will always be grateful to him for.
This is what my 2008 has been composed of. This people are the ones that have made it a good year. And to my friends back in Orlando, thank you for always making every year a better year. They are always there for me, even at my petty moments. Especially JoAnna, even though all the shit she has gone through she has time to listen to me talk about the smallest things. I wish this entire year would have been filled of happy moments but sadly it hasn't. Tragedy has plagued many of the lives of my friends this year;death of family members and friends, near death experiences, and just bad things happening constantly. All of these events have brought me to one conclusion, life is too short. I'm tired of constantly being cautious and worried about getting hurt. My resolution is not going to be something like losing weight or finding the perfect hairstyle, it is going to be about me taking a control of life. No more excuses. This new year its going to be me becoming a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, and just an overall a better person. So bring it 2009, I'm ready for you.

so let's look back at 2008 before it's gone..

Stayed single almost the whole year?
definitely not <3

Kissed someone new?
yes

Done something you've regretted?
probably.

Lost someone
not really, I've grown distant from a few people but it happens when you go to college.

Cut class?
Once

Visited a different country?
yes, Spain and Portugal

Cooked a gross meal?
Not that I can't think of

Tripped over a coffee table?
Many times

Dyed your hair?
nope

Came close to losing your life?
no

Went to a party?
yes

Read a great book?
yes

Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?
yeppers

2008: Friends and Enemies


Did you meet any new friends this year?
So many and I love them all. <3

Did you dislike anyon​e?
Eh some

Did you grow apart from anyone?
yes

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
nope

2008: Your BIRTH​DAY!


Did you have a cake?
Cheesecake and mousse

Did you have a party?
Watched Mulan and Narnia in the lounge haha

Did you get any presents?
yup

2008:​ All about​ YOU


Did you change at all this year?
Yes and for the better

Did you get your hair cut?
yep and getting one tomorrow

Did you change your style?
not really

Were you in school?
yes I was

Did you get good grades?
Yeah

Did you have a job?
Oh campus center dining hall, how you own my soul

Did you drive?
yes

Did you own a car?
nope

Did anyone close to you give birth?
jasmine did =]

Did you move at all?
to Ithaca, NY :)

Did you go on any vacations?
Spain and Portugal. And Civil Rights Tour can be counted as one, so Alabama and Georgia

Would you change anything about yourself now?
Somethings, low self esteem and learning how to trust better.

2008: Wrap UP:


Was 2008 a good year?
Yes

Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
I hope so
I confess that in 2008 I...
() stayed single for the whole year
() kissed in the rain
(x) celebrated Halloween
() had your heart broken
() mooned someone
() went over the minutes on your cell phone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) done something you've regretted

OTHER
(x) painted a picture
() wrote a poem
() ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog on MySpace
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
() partied to celebrate the new year
() cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lied about how old you were
() prank called someone

In 2008 I...
[x] broke a promise
[] fell out of love
[x] lied
[] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[] slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[] almost died
[] given up on something/someone important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x]tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[]had a fist fight
[] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x].. became closer with a lot of people

What is your Zodiac Sign?
Scorpio :) <3


What makes you feel like a kid again?
Watching Disney movies.



What is your weakness?
Worrying too much, low self esteem, not trusting people


What candle scent is your favorite?
hm I honestly don't know but if there was a candle scent that could recreate the amazing smell of winter then that will be my favorite.



What is your nationality?
Cuban and Chinese
Yeah I'm the spawn of Communism


What kind of music do you dislike most?
The music that is created by a computer in hopes of gaining a profit. Music is about feeling and expression not how many extra pennies you can get.



What sport do you dislike most?
Football


What is your favorite drink?
Tea and water


Are you a good kisser?
I think so but I don't kiss myself so I don't know

Can you cook?
Not well, I'm a better baker


Do you go out with your friends often?
In Ithaca - All the time
In Orlando- not much, I hate being home. I lack transportation and I live too far from everybody



What was your favorite toy as a kid?
Barbie


Whats your favorite movie?
A Very Long Engagement, Dead Poets Society, Princess Bride, Juno, LOTR!

Last time you were in trouble?
Don't know



Whats your favorite sports team?
ORLANDO MAGIC

What kind of phone do you have?
Lg Venus

Have you ever been to a strip club?
nope



Whats in your CD player?
um I have Circa Survive, and a Mix Cd in my stereo

Are your toenails painted?
never


What was your 1st alcoholic beverage?
beer


Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes, my boy :)




Whats in your shower?
Soap, shampoo, conditioner, things you use to clean yourself



Do you have an Ipod?
yes

Mac or PC?
mac


Are you getting along with your parents?
Sometimes



Do you wear jewelery?
Class ring and watch



First thing you think when you wake up?
time



Have you ever gone scuba diving?
no


Whats on your feet right now?
Nothing



Whats your dream car?
Mini Cooper


When is the last time you kissed some one?
The day I left Ithaca for break, so December 20th


Whats your favorite smell?
winter

Are you modest?
I try to be



What cell phone provider do you use?
Verizon


Have you gone to a prom?
Yes


How do you take your coffee?
Pumpkin Spice Latte but I usually don't drink coffee.


Do you care others think about you?
Somewhat but I don't let it control me



What do you do when your driving?
Well Drive and sing or yell at my dad.



Whats the last thing you ate?
Pumpkin cheesecake


Walmart or Target?
Target


What do you think of your last ex?
non-existent



Do you kiss and tell?
I don't like to


Are you a good speller?
At times



Whats on your mousepad?
doesn't exist


What taste is in your mouth?
pumpkin


What is your favorite snack?
chips and dip


Is your hair curly or straight?
Curly

So I failed my driving test, I wasn't even able to get past the parking. I hate my nerves.
Everything went wrong, first I got a flat tire yesterday then today my instructor comes in a PT CRUISER, which is not the car I had practice on. That completely made me uncomfortable being in an unknown car. When i first woke up I had a pain on my left arm, and on the way to the test I go on 528. Granted I have been on the 528 before but due to construction the epass lane went down from 2 to 1 and I was forced to make an awkward pass. On OBT this jackass cuts me off and just stops in the middle of the road forcing me to make a sudden stop and before him I the car in front me had broken brake lights making it unnerving to park.

God hates women. Why else would he punish us with our periods?
I'm cramping and it's no fun.

I think I made a decision.
I think I'm going to Florida Southern.
I can't wait for next year!

I actually liked the retreat this year. Usually they are horrible but not this year, its probably because they didn't put us into groups.
I climbed a tree :D and learned how to do a cartwheel. Yeah i have bruises on my knees from falling like 20 times trying to attempt a cartwheel. but overall it was so much fun and I'm exhausted.
I can't believe it was four years ago when we wrote those letters. It has felt longer and shorter at the same time.